Hello guys, today i decided to make new forum about my life after 3-4 months. The good news for me is my depression just gone after summer breaks, ill never see my "classmates" again and everything starts to get back to normal(I wish).
Now, the bad news for me is getting declined to studying college for free(Even on paying mode). I actually dont understand why i got declined, even if i studied very well on school. Second, all of parents pressure with their arguments like "If you wont study very well and spend more on games, You will sweep the road like these guys", i might quit chess for several days, weeks or even months. Also they dont care about my skills on chess. When i won NM for first time at night, my mother literally kicked my old laptop and said "I dont care with people you are playing, sleep or else". They want me to stay i straight line that i always want to escape.
Ik, its crazy to hear that parents arent happy for me winning a master. They dont support me, instead they just want to see me as they wanted(Like boy who loves studying, obedient and who never play games). I see this as big shame. I wish that these 2 years gonna fly really fast and get out from my isolated town to big cities.
Should i actually start preparing to escape plan before 2 years didnt end?
Better to make a blog about it than write a 300 word essay...
@player_8846 said [^](/forum/redirect/post/arrJUGxH)
> Should i actually start preparing to escape plan before 2 years didnt end?
Probably not a good idea.
@O_olo_O said [^](/forum/redirect/post/OLQiGp7u)
> > Should i actually start preparing to escape plan before 2 years didnt end?
>
> Probably not a good idea.
Find someone to talk to (Probably not your parents if they are making you feel bad, and also not a stranger) about it, um, if you have a friend that would let you stay over if you don't want to be around your parents, maybe talk to them about it?
@O_olo_O said [^](/forum/redirect/post/3mGQGmu2)
> Find someone to talk to (Probably not your parents if they are making you feel bad, and also not a stranger) about it, um, if you have a friend that would let you stay over if you don't want to be around your parents, maybe talk to them about it?
I had friends, but i lost them after 9th grade. They all gone to colleges
@player_8846 said [^](/forum/redirect/post/UTMTNId2)
> > Find someone to talk to (Probably not your parents if they are making you feel bad, and also not a stranger) about it, um, if you have a friend that would let you stay over if you don't want to be around your parents, maybe talk to them about it?
>
> I had friends, but i lost them after 9th grade. They all gone to colleges
do you know their phone numbers? Maybe you could talk over the phone? Or email?
@O_olo_O said [^](/forum/redirect/post/aTMaeFOb)
> > > Find someone to talk to (Probably not your parents if they are making you feel bad, and also not a stranger) about it, um, if you have a friend that would let you stay over if you don't want to be around your parents, maybe talk to them about it?
> >
> > I had friends, but i lost them after 9th grade. They all gone to colleges
>
> do you know thei...
Yes, but they dont awnser to messages all of their own problems
@player_8846 said [^](/forum/redirect/post/YrInr6oy)
> Yes, but they dont awnser to messages all of their own problems
Do you have a grandparent or cousin that you could talk to?
@O_olo_O said [^](/forum/redirect/post/sE0GWQRe)
> > Yes, but they dont awnser to messages all of their own problems
>
> Do you have a grandparent or cousin that you could talk to?
I cant talk to them, too shy to say these words and im scared that they will do as parents(Like dont listen or dont care about it)
@player_8846 said [^](/forum/redirect/post/7Zq1OtNB)
> > > Yes, but they dont awnser to messages all of their own problems
> >
> > Do you have a grandparent or cousin that you could talk to?
>
> I cant talk to them, too shy to say these words and im scared that they will do as parents(Like dont listen or dont care about it)
What about a teacher? Like at your school?