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Love the topic....Im kinda insecure myself, about everything, and its taken quite a bit of proving shitt to myself to get over my insecurities in one domain, only for another to crop up in another. Its almost as if ive looked for an excuse all my life, to both prove that there is something fundamentally grotesque about me, and then rebel against this notion and prove the opossite. (Anybody that has a narcissistic parent knows what im talking about) Like the original commentor, im still struggling with my general insecurity, but, i might, i hope, have something to say that might help another....In the US military theres quite a bit of self congratulation and repitition of a dumbass little fact regarding current enlistment in the US, and the percent of people who enlist, which i guess at the time was 1%. It struck me as odd that this number was repeated over and over - as if this was something to be proud of and of value in itself. It wasnt until later that I learned what a normal distribution was and began to understand why this number bears any significance. The silliness of it still remains in mind, even though i can now empathize with the sentiment.....something either has inherent value, or it doesnt; to pride yourself in being a rarity along any dimension, is kinda odd if you give it a think. Would it be a good thing to be in the 99th percentile along a psychopathic features dimension? Or on the flip side of that, would a Ferrari cease being a badass car tomorrow, if the market were flooded with them and this car now, instead of being one in a million cars, is now one in 50, or one in 5? Is an ability or quality that comes to one effortlessly, even if its generally valued, valuable to that person if no effort is involved? Is it not more impressive to see someone of slight less natural talent surpass the naturally endowed. This sort of dynamic is probably why sports are so entertaining. There is no inherent meaning and value to be gained from struggle, but anything that is completely void of struggle is not of much value and meaning. This is all to say that cultivation and improvement in worthwhile persuits is of greater value not only to the practitioner but everyone around him or her aswell. Effortless peformance or the having of a sought after thing, without struggle in a worthwhile enterprise, is meaningless and lesves you feeling kinda cheap....a porn star might have a 10 or 12 inch dick and find himself at the 1 percent of 1 percents, but probably doesnt feel much fullfillment and meaning in his work. Conversly a dude with an 8 inch dick that feels himself insufficient next to the 12 inchers, might have developed a strong peformance anxiety but through struggle, overcome that anxiety and find more meaning in his work - despite the fact that his work is of limited inherent value (though i suppose it could be).
People really do not understand that it is socially and morally inappropriate to make fun of other people. If what they say isn't true, then there is nothing to be offended by, and if it is true then once again you can just agree with them. (Unless they have seriously threatened you or your reputation) Instead of getting upset, you can just not play their game. They win if you get upset. I once played a 1900 OTB chess, and they poked fun at my rating, yes, but I complimented them immediately, "I haven't put in the effort, work, and time you have into chess". They left happier than before, we don't know what they are going through when they act socially and morally inappropriately in front of others. You can have no number on your forehead, if you have a disconnect with mean nonsense.
damn midjourney art is so ugly..
@Thatsbutters said in #12:
> Love the topic....Im kinda insecure myself, about everything, and its taken quite a bit of proving shitt to myself to get over my insecurities in one domain, only for another to crop up in another. Its almost as if ive looked for an excuse all my life, to both prove that there is something fundamentally grotesque about me, and then rebel against this notion and prove the opossite. (Anybody that has a narcissistic parent knows what im talking about) Like the original commentor, im still struggling with my general insecurity, but, i might, i hope, have something to say that might help another....In the US military theres quite a bit of self congratulation and repitition of a dumbass little fact regarding current enlistment in the US, and the percent of people who enlist, which i guess at the time was 1%. It struck me as odd that this number was repeated over and over - as if this was something to be proud of and of value in itself. It wasnt until later that I learned what a normal distribution was and began to understand why this number bears any significance. The silliness of it still remains in mind, even though i can now empathize with the sentiment.....something either has inherent value, or it doesnt; to pride yourself in being a rarity along any dimension, is kinda odd if you give it a think. Would it be a good thing to be in the 99th percentile along a psychopathic features dimension? Or on the flip side of that, would a Ferrari cease being a badass car tomorrow, if the market were flooded with them and this car now, instead of being one in a million cars, is now one in 50, or one in 5? Is an ability or quality that comes to one effortlessly, even if its generally valued, valuable to that person if no effort is involved? Is it not more impressive to see someone of slight less natural talent surpass the naturally endowed. This sort of dynamic is probably why sports are so entertaining. There is no inherent meaning and value to be gained from struggle, but anything that is completely void of struggle is not of much value and meaning. This is all to say that cultivation and improvement in worthwhile persuits is of greater value not only to the practitioner but everyone around him or her aswell. Effortless peformance or the having of a sought after thing, without struggle in a worthwhile enterprise, is meaningless and lesves you feeling kinda cheap....a porn star might have a 10 or 12 inch dick and find himself at the 1 percent of 1 percents, but probably doesnt feel much fullfillment and meaning in his work. Conversly a dude with an 8 inch dick that feels himself insufficient next to the 12 inchers, might have developed a strong peformance anxiety but through struggle, overcome that anxiety and find more meaning in his work - despite the fact that his work is of limited inherent value (though i suppose it could be). thats so loooooooooooooooooooooooong
I actually need High Ratings, because I m stuck at 1850-1900+ and can move on for years, why should I don't care about it?to play so long and not to break that limit is not in My Style, I want to Rise as much as Possible
Amazing da
@aVague said in #17:
> I actually need High Ratings, because I m stuck at 1850-1900+ and can move on for years, why should I don't care about it?to play so long and not to break that limit is not in My Style, I want to Rise as much as Possible
thats a lot.. im still in 700-800 in blitz
@TANVI27 said in #19:
> thats a lot.. im still in 700-800 in blitz
I was around 1200 when I started, then I worked with Health very hard( it's actually very important, not high rating is mostly due some illnesses , that stops improvment and right thinking.
I ve tried lot of herbs, Yoga, Mudras from Yoga , Chinses and all exersises, and could keep some level despite problems with health I have