@TrainingOTB said in #25:
"just one positive opinion or one person who agrees with me that would make me very happy."
Just sit on that sentence in silence and think deeply as if you would play chess... you really want to allow some random person internet opinions or be it real life opinions to decide whether you will live happy life or not. Who is deciding your mood? Is it you in charge of it or someone else? If you lose 10 games in a row, the rage "comes", is this rage an external or something inside of you, which you are the boss of? Your ideas got disliked on some internet forum, and sadness arrives, where does that travel from? Inside or outside? Investigate it, unless you want all the time depend on some external tides (sunny = happy, rainy =sad, got a job = happy, lost a job =sad, somebody said I am smart = happy, someone said I am stup.d = sad etc)...
Depending your life on external opinios is madness, just go into it, go deep on how person's opinions arise, and then multiply it by millions of random life scenarios etc. and you want to base your depression or not depression on it?
I agree that it is true that simple opinions on the internet should not affect my mood
but we are human and we have feelings
To take an example, if they tell you that you are stupid every day, I doubt that you will continue your life while being happy...
you will inevitably have a feeling of sadness, it's an extreme example, but I have already experienced this situation because I experienced school bullying when I was young
Every day I was called Down syndrome, I was struck
then the responsibles punished me with overtime for violence against my colleagues even though I was beaten every day and it was obvious
in sport I had an average of 0.5, because no one wanted me in the group
it's because of that, but their justification on that, I don't remember
I'm sure I received so much hate that it exceeds the chess combinations I've played so far
so as I have a difficult past, receiving a lot of negative opinion is like the straw that breaks the camel's back
most people here are not wicked
It is normal for people to disagree with answers, that is the principle of this forum
It's just that I feel like I've never been right about anything.
if in real life someone contradicts you, and then you write on the forum to talk about failures and you only get negative responses and who says you are wrong
you will be sad, the feeling of never being right, plus the fact that I was a victim of harassment in the past
If someone told me what the last wicked sentence in a forum would be, it would be "you don't deserve your rating", which was said in a recent forum.
but that's in the past because I'm starting to write much more often on the forum and following this message in this forum I have a lot of support and positive response
In any case, thank you very much for writing what you wrote.



